I forgot that I sent my portfolio to a sci-fi/fantasy magazine called, "Metaphorosis" at the beginning of this year (2017). The editor had liked my work and said they'd let me know when they could use my style. I thought that was nice, but really didn't think I'd hear back from them. So it came as a surprise when he contacted me a couple months ago and asked me to create the cover for their December 2017 issue.
Of course, I'd like the opportunity to have my art on the cover of this fiction magazine. They sent me 2 fairytale-like stories and asked me to sketch a scene from one of them that I wanted to create for the cover. I read both of them and they were very romantic and very melancholy. The main characters in both of the stories felt lonely, sad and wished for love.
I decided whatever I chose to create, it had to make you feel that loneliness and that longing for love. I chose a scene where the young lovers must part and may not ever see each other again. I thought making it dark and muted with only little parts glowing would make it feel magical and mysterious.
Honestly, I was scared I couldn't make it what it needed to be. I wasn't sure if I was good enough of an artist. I confided in a friend who has known me for a long time. After listening, he reminded me that I am always like this before I start a painting. I doubt myself. I think it's going badly and it's not going to turn out. I laughed when he told me that. It was true. I had forgotten that.
He also reminded me that even if it seemed like my painting wasn't working out and he didn't understand what I was trying to create, it always turned out beautifully. He had faith in me. That gave me the courage to continue and to finish it.
As you can see, it turned out quite lovely. I surprised myself. The editor said he liked it a lot and so did my friends and fellow artists. That made me feel good. I was so happy I came through, not just for the magazine, but also, for myself.